im okay with playing the part.

or atleast A part.

its when reality settles
and eyes meet

that i really struggle with.

eagerly i can join the cast,
read my lines,
and come in on cue.

but after the play is done
costumes are donned off
and we shed all pretenses
it can be quite the gamble

so much internal conflict
too much.
i need to be myself.
to the people i care about.
to everyone.
i can be so much more than i am.
i should be.